When screams for help weren't heard, begging for the human sense in everyone in the world didn't reach out, lighting a million and 300 thousand candles wasn't enough to light up dark cold nights, women in Gaza decided to break through the walls of stone and steal on the boarders while UN men were not up to the task. I woke up this morning on the news of thousands crossing the boarders to Egypt regardless of Ramallah's Karzai, Israel's Zionist supremacists, and the rest of the blind world. Every family has the challenge now to buy its children food and milk, and maybe some diesel to startup their backup generators to cope with the need to stay in the 21st century.

While Americans were celebrating their history of civil society struggle against hatred and disenfranchisement - based on race and gender - through the memory of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., another system of hatred and religious supremacy is shading another part of the world. The human tragedy continues in a different style, where KKK hoods were replaced by IDF helmets. The continuous mass-lashing and group punishment continues in Gaza Strip for their democratic choices.

The humanitarian depth of this problem is not but an echo to the political situation supported by stupid politicians in Israel, Palestine, and US. The 2 neighboring states solution continues to illustrate lousiness and ridicule throughout the results. One state is allowed to create an acceptable theocracy and religious supremacy, and the other to serve that picture with a supply of partial human workers. This is a denial of human dreams of a just distribution of rights and status. Standing against this is another chapter in human struggle against German Nazi's, S.African Nats, and now Jewish Zionism.

So.. Since I stepped on the US soil, all what I had were around $300 and a couple of $50/$20 notes in my wallet, plus a dime and 2 nickels a friend of mine gave me when I was in UAE. So I would claim that I knew that US currency is either green notes - pinkish now - and metallic coins that held some value.

What couldn't understand was the pennies part. Small copper pieces that the cashiers gave me every time when I sincerely would have accepted a round-down. Although very insignificant in value, I always picked any falling penny even if it ran away on the metro stop , till Ashleigh told me one day to ignore it. It was like a light led up and told me I don't really need to care about these pieces much, since they were almost of no value. I started avoiding putting them in my wallet and would place them in my jackets or pants to give them to any homeless guy around the corner; which was another problem. Actually I found out it's quite a cheap donation to give the pennies you had, even if it was a whole scoop of them - they should be counted by that. So, I actually didn't know what to do.

To be honest, I started ignoring them. ask he cashier to keep them, or leave them stroll till they bury themselves under a pedestrian shoe, or whatever they wanted to do; it's America at the end.

I just had a question about them. I started wondering how many pennies I ignore, and whether or not it was a fortune that I'm losing. I tried thinking of losing a penny a day, and to make the math easier, made it 300 pennies a year. Reasonable enough ..
but there re around 300M Americans wandering around this country, and I am quite sure they learned like me - quite a FOB - not to pick this running away infinitesimal fortune. so that would be 90,000,000,000 homeless pennies, which is around $0.9 Billion. To be honest again, I didn't know America had this much money on the floor..

did you ?

- "They actually didn't count my last year.."
- "What do you mean ?"
- "I was enrolled in 2007.. I should have got my first rank in 6 months then in 2008 I should get a Mulazem (Lieutenant)"
- "what difference does that make ?"
- "Well .. I'm paid 1000 NIS and should get 2000"
- "wow"
- "bastards"
- "but technically, did you work last year for the security forces ?"
- "No .. we are not supposed to help Hamas government"
- "so what do they pay you for ?"
- "To stay home"
- "What ?"
- "If you were known to work for the government in Gaza.. They cut your salary right away"
- "wtf ? you are paid to stay home ? what kinda job is that ?"
- "these are the Ramallah bastards.. we are not supposed to support Gaza government"
- "The first government to hear that ever does that.. "

This conversation I had with my friend in Palestine - Hamas occupied territories (Gaza) at a very interesting time for me after finishing reading a book my wife gave me "Confessions of an Economic Hitman" which coincided with reading an interview with Jamal Ayesh - a co-founder of Fatah and a member in PLO's national committee. He mentioned how a bunch of "businessmen" are handling the Palestinian most critical issues like the Refugees, Jerusalem, water, and Settlements. This group of people is trying to hijack the Palestinian long and honoring history of struggle and self-sacrifice for personal agendas. No mentioning a number of examples of Dahalanism "Mohammed Dahalan case" and Qrai'ism "Abu Ala'a Qrai'a case with settlements". Some people like Dahalan had their cards burned by a more national group in Gaza - Hamas, but Qrai'a is leading the negotiations with the Israelis on our most important set of Palestinian red lines.

The problem is branching into a number of problems that is topped by having our top leaders get involved in a set of generous financial advantages that will change them from lousy statesmen to benefiting capitalist businessmen. On the other hand, a whole nation is dipped into a day to day life dilemma that will not push them to secure their most basic security, health, and food needs and not further care about self-determination or actualization. A whole nation leadership was trivialized in running a state's errants and beg for the next set of medicines to get into Gaza Strip or enough fuel to be shipped to keep patients from dying.

Throughout the confessions of the EHM I fell in love with the same personality the writer loved - Omar Torrijos that was murdered in a CIA style of plane crash if I'm not mistaken. It's a basic result of putting your nation's interest in front of uncle Sam's, or in Gaza's case to be boycotted and isolated and viewed as a terrorist with a beard. The stamping of the national heroes that spent their lives battling injustice to be extremists or terrorists is not a new theme, but it's a shame to fall in the same trap that has been used for the past century ..
As American's say "fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me" .. though Bush never knew how to say it right ..